January 23 1:26pm
There are days that I relish in the ugly truth, that I find joy in the blunt honesty, in the rudeness of it all and how raw and real and exposed life makes us.
January 24 6:28pm
What a horrible thing it is to feel like you've broken something that you were only trying to make so much better.
January 27 9:20pm
The way other girls look at you makes me feel invisible. Even though you tell me all the time you're mine, I forever feel like I'm competing for a place inside your heart.
January 29 1:14pm
I've never loved a man that wasn't a liar. I've never loved a man that I didn't believe in.
February 4 12:47pm
You never really fall completely out of love with someone. People are like songs. Your favorite ones will be the ones you always remember all of the words too. You'll sing along years later without even realizing it. They give you a sense of nostalgia. And there are also songs that you've grown out of and songs that you became bored with.There's songs that were overplayed and songs that annoyed you, but you still remember them. All it takes is the first few notes and suddenly all the words and all the feelings come flooding back.
February 8 10:31am
It was earlier today when I was waiting outside the bathroom that I realized our friendship has gone to shit and the only reason I keep you around is for the memories that used to be so great.
Monday November 19 2012 4:20PM
What if all the stars were really souls wandering the night sky?
Monday November 19 2012 4:22PM
Locked inside libraries for the past 20 years, I've lived so many lives but the one that always fails to catch my attention is my own.
Tuesday November 20 2012 8:31PM
I want to scream at the top of my lungs "please love me!" Love me because we're never going to be this young again and if I die tomorrow I would want to know that I spent my last days with the man that is also my best friend.
Wednesday November 21 2012 1:33AM
I spend all night making lists of things I'll never do.
Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
I thought of you and where you'd gone
and let the world spin madly on
Everything that I said I'd do
Like make the world brand new
And take the time for you
I just got lost and slept right through the dawn
And the world spins madly on
I let the day go by
I always say goodbye
I watch the stars from my window sill
The whole world is moving and I'm standing still
Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
The night is here and the day is gone
And the world spins madly on
I thought of you and where you'd gone
And the world spins madly on.
August 5th 1:26 am
I've tried to write a million songs for you, but I can never get the melody just right.
August 16th 3:53 am
I am such a different person in my head when I'm asleep.
September 8th 11:43 pm
I spend all of my days dreaming of the freedom by the sea.
September 8th 11:47 pm
The only art I'm in love with is the art that doesn't make any sense.
October 6th 12:03 am
Things you'll never understand: The way my stomach feels sick like throwing up every time I leave my bedroom.
October 6th 12:12 am
Sometimes I feel too much & sometimes I feel nothing at all & sometimes I need to bleed because it's the only way I know how to get everything out.
October 6th 12:15 am
Toss my head over the sink and puke my half-rotted guts out, purging my body of all it's demons. Holding back strands of colored hair , I feel weak & fragile & desperate, but for a little while I'm reminded that I'm still human and deep down I think I've found myself again.
October 6th 12:18 am
Whenever I'm here I feel like all I'm doing is drifting, and I fear you've fallen so in love with what is just a watered down version of the real me.
October 7th 10:33 am
I find it necessary, sometimes, to simply sit and brew some tea, listen to an old screamo CD, light a cigarette, and read a some Bukowski poems about fucking girls and placing bets. Call me crazy, but this is my cathartic form of therapy.
October 7th 10:35 am
Long drives with the windows down, homeward bound. Here I am.
Somedays I feel like I have absolutely no control over my life. I am a rollercoaster that jumped the track, a tornado spinning out of control, a car crash waiting to happen, a story with not plot. Somedays I feel like the world is slipping away out from underneath my feet. Today is one of those days.