Whisper Slowly
I want to scream out loud
To drown you out,
Put you in your place,
Not be ashamed to show my face.
I want to fall asleep
And never wake up,
Just lay here I've had enough.
I'm tired.
Oh so tired.
The words are trapped somewhere within
And I can't get them out.
It's so hard to breathe.
Look at what you do to me.
It's terrifying.
Laugh at my crying.
And nobody knows
I try so hard to seem okay,
Just smile through the pain.
Push it all aside,
All these thoughts in my head.
The ones that keep telling me
I'd be better off dead.
Locked away without a key.
You want me to stay,
But I'm ready to leave.
Resurface again,
But it doesn't last long.
Freedom never lasts long.
Like a cinder block,
A heavy rock,
You drag me back down underneath
The lies and the deciet,
Rumors and shattered dreams,
Where wishes on stars cannot come true.
There's nothing more that I can do.
My fate is set,
Whisper slowly all the things I regret,
Scars that never fully heal,
Open wounds that never close.
Slit my throat,
It's all false hope.
The words are trapped somewhere within
And I can't get them out.
It's so hard to breathe.
Look at what you do to me.
It's terrifying.
Laugh at my crying.
And nobody knows
I try so hard to seem okay,
Just smile through the pain.
Push it all aside,
All these thoughts in my head.
The ones that keep telling me
I'd be better off dead.
Be better off dead,
Better off dead,
I'd be better off dead.
That's what you said.
When I told you I'd be something someday,
That I'd get there on my own, my own way.
Told me that I couldn't make it.
I'm no good I shouldn't fake it.
Anger swells up.
I wish I could shut you up.
Relax,
Relapse,
I wish I could get back at you.
But there's nothing I can do.
My fate is set.
Whisper slowly all the things I regret.
To drown you out,
Put you in your place,
Not be ashamed to show my face.
I want to fall asleep
And never wake up,
Just lay here I've had enough.
I'm tired.
Oh so tired.
The words are trapped somewhere within
And I can't get them out.
It's so hard to breathe.
Look at what you do to me.
It's terrifying.
Laugh at my crying.
And nobody knows
I try so hard to seem okay,
Just smile through the pain.
Push it all aside,
All these thoughts in my head.
The ones that keep telling me
I'd be better off dead.
Locked away without a key.
You want me to stay,
But I'm ready to leave.
Resurface again,
But it doesn't last long.
Freedom never lasts long.
Like a cinder block,
A heavy rock,
You drag me back down underneath
The lies and the deciet,
Rumors and shattered dreams,
Where wishes on stars cannot come true.
There's nothing more that I can do.
My fate is set,
Whisper slowly all the things I regret,
Scars that never fully heal,
Open wounds that never close.
Slit my throat,
It's all false hope.
The words are trapped somewhere within
And I can't get them out.
It's so hard to breathe.
Look at what you do to me.
It's terrifying.
Laugh at my crying.
And nobody knows
I try so hard to seem okay,
Just smile through the pain.
Push it all aside,
All these thoughts in my head.
The ones that keep telling me
I'd be better off dead.
Be better off dead,
Better off dead,
I'd be better off dead.
That's what you said.
When I told you I'd be something someday,
That I'd get there on my own, my own way.
Told me that I couldn't make it.
I'm no good I shouldn't fake it.
Anger swells up.
I wish I could shut you up.
Relax,
Relapse,
I wish I could get back at you.
But there's nothing I can do.
My fate is set.
Whisper slowly all the things I regret.